January 10, 2010

Hope today is a good day. It's very difficult dealing with my daughter. She's 8 weeks pregnant and is going through the worst first trimester. On top of her being bipolar, she's a bundle of hormones. She's not eating and that dosen't help. Her boyfriend is an asshole from hell. Hope he goes to jail soon. He's always in trouble. I must say I love my daugher deaply and I only want the best for her.
Thinking of moving to a bigger place, God knows how I'm gonna come up with a security deposit. I need a job but I don't know how I'm going to swing it with the illness. I have problems with all kinds of issues when it comes to dealing with people in the workplace. Everyday I think it's going to get better but it doesn't. I just wish I could get back on the stick. I have problems processing and I feel slow about figuring things out. I feel I'm going to catch up on things but it just doesn't happen. I always think it's the med's but I just can't stop them, I'll be a mess. I just hope for a better day tomorrow.

What's the cause of Bipolar

Bipolar disorders are caused by differences in how a person's brain and nervous system regulate basic behaviors.

The human nervous system is an amazing organic machine, creating and reaction to a complex stew of chemical, electrical, and magnetic impulses. It's constantly humming away, taking in information from all of our senses and reacting to it in ways that control every bodily activity, from basic breathing and circulation on up.

A single misstep in one of these process can set a chain of events in motion that leads to a neurological event, such as a memory lapse, a seizure, or a manic episode. If such missteps occur constantly, the person has a neurological disorder.

Brain scans can show where abnormal activity is ocurring, when a person is bipolar, or whether the brain is structured differently than usual.

My feelings on depression

Everyone has there down times and occasionally gets the blues. If you suffer from bipolar illness than you have experienced depression, to the fullest. I've had my share of depression.
From my experiences with depression, I found the following to be common syptoms of depression: Substance abuse is one big sign, being angry is another, becoming aggressive, not caring about yourself and other's, being self destructive, sleeping all the time, physical body aches that are unexplainable. These symptoms are classic for depression.
A person who experiences a great deal of depressive episodes can suffer from "Unipolor disorder". It the same as bipolar symptoms without the Mania.